Long time I was troubled by the thought that I was rejected. This thought became so firmly rooted within me that no person in the world could convince me otherwise. Eventually, however, I decided to pray earnestly to God: I devoted myself to spiritual life – only out of love for You, God. I constantly strove to do everything for You. Whatever may happen to me now, whether I am rejected or saved, I want to continue doing everything out of pure love for You forever. At least this one thing will remain with me: that until my death, I will do nothing else but love You. This anxiety of the heart gripped me for four years, and during that time, I suffered much.
(St. Lawrence of the Resurrection, 2nd dialogue, September 28, 1666)
